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Tuesday, October 03, 2006; Comments

i noe i said life sux ...well i realised that it is meant to sux so dat we will appreciate the times when life does not sux

get wad i mean?

oh wells there is a balance in life...you have good days and bad days

so previously over the weekend it was actually filled with good and bad...

the same for this week
but i get a lil bit worried when things are jus too good to be true
u simply jus dun wan it to end
and pray so hard its not a dream

well monday was sucky
no work till like 4.30 then bloody guy edmund give me work
so i did slowly in case no work this whole work
tried so hard to ask when my PAY is coming!!!!
and guess what b4 i knew it...the HR manager went home so early
SHE IS SUPPOSE TO GET BACK TO ME ABOUT MY PAY !!!
bloody hell
and went to meet shafah AGAIN! YEA

her lil brother so cute
how i wish my "lil" bro listens to me
went to jus walk with her at rivervale mall
its jus this small lil things that lights up ur day
she made my day...blissful

went home and guess wad i get
a hated family
couldn't take the silence anymore
my aunt and me
so after i heard she went to scold my mom 4 my behaviour
i called her up
i tot i gg to scream at her
but i jus couldn't

my angst towards her have fill to the brim that i dunno
whether to blow up
or
pour out

so i choose to pour out
yea
i broke down the moment i said this very word
the hardest thing you could ever say
the word that needs sincerity and loads of gut
jus to say it

and that word is

SORRY...

i told her that i was sorry for being rude at her mum
(my granny)
but actually i was not angry at granny
but her
so that is when she heard me
broke down on the phone

and never tot ur fav aunt to react this way
but my aunt laughed and tot its cute
well i am her one and only fav niece
so each time i put my ego down
she understands me inside out
she noes its hard for me to do that
and when i do i really mean it and
am sincere

so i guess she was touched
and decided to let me join her for dinner at bugis tmr
seoul garden with her frens
after work!!
i love dates after work...
you noe sth to look forward too
and so you have a drive
that is me i need a drive

no drive
i wun move

never tot the word
sorry
could heal angst and hatred in jus a second
when it has made your life miserable for days

try it
it works

today
tuesday
second day of work for the week
and guess wd
from nth to do and bored at work
to piling me up with complicated jobs!

fun tho
at least time pass so fast
heee
nth much tho
jus looking forward to TMR!

work
dinner with fav aunt
watch anime

thurs---HOPEFULLY GET PAY AR!!
date with lels baby

friday
have ar

sat
appointment with
mdm ZAINAB!
go turf

sunday
meet
SHAFAH!!

ALL PLANNED AND BOOKED
FOR MORE DETAILS
CALL SISTIC
AT 81451796!

i have things i wanna buy with my pay
but my heart will ache if i spent anyhow
well

we'll see
my mum gg umrah on the 8 !!

honestly
i hate to see my mum go

to mum,
i noe i have not tok to u much lately
or see u even
or hug u and say i love u
or call u jus to tell u how my day is
i take u for granted knowing u will be ard
but now u are gg away
i feel it
this pain i dunno how to describe
i guess its the bond we alr have
the moment u give birth to me
no matter how much we fight
no matter how far we are
we both know we do still and always
love each other

sorry if i hardly show that i care
but i really do
pls promise me u will come home safe
that is all i pray for
and that is all i need

- i miss you ....