NASH

the irony of it all

Monday, February 08, 2010; Comments

i've just did all my laundry...its amazing... all the clutter in my room is 99.9% gone

but my heart ... i wish i could put it in the laundry..

clean all the poison and hurt out.
wish it was that easy.
i dunno bout the future and how i would be like
how i would think of love and romance
i still think it will still be inside me
but not really positive of it right now

i have had dreams of how i will change drasticly in the future
some are nice and some are just horrid

one time i dream i met a new girl and got tog with her
but even in that dream i feel my heart is not totally over her
and part of it or most of my heart still wanna be with her in the end

the other dream i had is that went to south africa to work and migrate
and never came back
and our paths just never cross each other again
thats horrid

i dunno
but all i noe was
that before i die
i wan to hug her and tell her how much i still love her
no matter how many decades may have pass .
or at least get to see her laugh and smile before i leave earth
thats all i ask

i dun even ask for her love for me
just wanna see her happy and be happy for her truly

no matter how painful or foolish these intentions may seem
but its a stage of love at a higher degree
that i know one will have to go through it once in their life to fully understand it all...

i'm begining to understand the meaning of giving and not expecting anything in return
begining to understand... but to fully put it in action takes time
sacrificing for someone you truly love no matter wad the world says
and to continuing loving someone in silent

its all part and parcel of life and love
i know if i can master this
i'll be a better person
i hope and pray
that she sees the way i see it
and be a better person too one day

with love
nash